Pursuit Of Happiness...

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america . ♥ [here i come.]

Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want .

Friday : went to school , Michael called at big break and he said he was in town , so was quite excited to see him (: 

Saturday : hung out with my cousin [Tijana] all day , hung out later on with Michael , but first he canceled on me , then called me and told me to get to BBI in 10 min , i flipped ! how evil of him ... Later on , hung out with Nora , Anna , Ennis and John [hihihi] then Kemo , Dervis and Haris came , and we hung out for about 3 or 4 hours , then Giulia came , and Kemo , D and H left , and we went to get shisha with Nina and some of her guy friends , Emir S was there =.= what a meanie....

Sunday : Tijana slept over again , did my bosnian powerpoint at 9 AM made a wish at 10:10 AM on the 10/10/10 ! was quite happy :D then napped the rest of the day , and now ,took a very long shower to clear out my mind , and leave the stress from last week behind , so that i can be fresh for a new week of stress . :D making another wish soon at 10:10 PM , because i can :) 

i hope it comes true ♥ 

all in all, was a great weekend. will blog soon :)

Insomnia.

Hello, hello. 

What a beautiful morning in Sarajevo today. After 5 forced hours of sleep, I am back on my feet again. Took a sleeping pill around 3ish AM. Can't quite remember, but that's not really my issue, (the sleeping pill, that is) the issue is the fact that I can't fall asleep... I think I have insomnia, but I am not saying I am SURE I do. But it may be a possibility. I simply can't fall asleep, i don't even feel tired after NOT sleeping all night. 

I try to fall asleep, and I close  my eyes, and I forget how to fall asleep, and it just won't happen, the magic of falling asleep AFTER SOME TIME when I close my eyes. I am new to all this insomnia stuff and I really don't know what to do, I am scared of having any strange hallucinations, I would FLIP if i saw something I knew couldn't possibly be there... *hint,hint*   so after 3ish nights of no sleep, decided it was time to see WHAT THE F IS CAUSING INSOMNIA, yeah I know, I'm so smart...

Psychological Causes

Anxiety, a condition in which individuals feel increased tension, apprehension, and feelings of helplessness, fear, worry, and uncertainty. This may be due to the effects that other people at work have on us, financial worries, concerns over relationships outside work or numerous other causes.

Stress, or how effectively a person copes with any emotional, physical, social, economic, or other factor that requires a response or change.

Depression, a mood disturbance characterized by feelings of sadness, despair, and discouragement.

Physical Causes

Hormonal changes in women. These include premenstrual syndrome, menstruation, pregnancy, and menopause.

Decreased melatonin. The levels of melatonin, the hormone that helps control sleep, decrease as a person ages. By age 60, the body produces very little melatonin.

Medical conditions. These include allergies, arthritis, asthma, heart disease, high blood pressure, hyperthyroidism, and Parkinson's disease.

Pain. Pain and discomfort from a medical illness or injury often interfere with sleep.

Genetics. Problems with insomnia do seem to run in some families, although researchers have yet to identify how genetics play a role.

Other sleep disorders. These include sleep apnea(in which one temporarily stops breathing during sleep) and periodic leg and arm movements during sleep (in which one's muscles excessively twitch or jerk).

source: http://www.ehealthmd.com/library/insomnia/ins_causes.html

But not everything bad happened this week, I recieved a pleasent text from this guy, a good friend of mine, and i was sooo happy, it was sooo cute .... and it was Ajla's Birthday, and we talked, ALOT about some important stuff, like Turkey... and R... and some other peeps, and school starts SOON ! yay ! (:

SEPTEMBER 1ST ! :D 

happy (:

        

I also started watching 90210, and I LOVE IT ! 

so dramatic, and juicy. hehe ;D must watch more ! MOAR !!

well I'm off, my butt hurts from sitting on the floor.... xoxo.

p.s. L.a. is still 9 hours behind .

Turkey 2010 ♥

I am back, and I wonder if I really want to be here. Sitting in my bed, drinking non-alcoholic peach flavored beer, watching "Takken". Missing *R*, maybe very much, and hopping to see him again... Lets go back about 12 days earlier, when my journey through August 2010 was only beggining.

and so I am on a plane to Turkey, not excited, not happy, actually hating it. We arrive to Antalya, and yes it is about 40 degrees outside, the hottness in the air slaps my face, I almost vomitted from the heat. So, we're at the hotel, and it's crap, because of the heat and everything else, my parents totally flip and say this is sooo not what they payed for...

and blah, blah, blah *fastforward* because the stuff in between is so boring =.=

So, i was homesick for awhile, and the weird thing was that i was sweating from EVERY part of my body, except my palms, I became suspicious of what God had planned for me these next 10 days... So, there was way too many Russians, waaaay too many DRUNK Russians... People thought I was either Russian or Turkish, I kept on wondering why. There was this one guy, an animator, sort-of old and not-so-attractive, when I played darts, and let me tell you, I was really good, for awhile, until a guy, called W...something came and joined the game, he kept looking at me, made me uncomfortable.

The animators made me play all sorts of games, there was one: stand on a surfboard (in the pool) stay ballanced, and throw a ball in a basket, yes seemed easy to me, but haha, i was well ballanced, but what I had to do before all that is say my name and my country into the microphone, and thats when he came, *R* maybe among one of the many men who play an important rule in my life... There was something about him, that made me so distracted all 10 days. First time I saw him, was when me and my parents where going in the elevator to go see our room (the one we changed 10 min later) and he was walking in slow motion (no, not literally, but i just like to imagine it that way...) He was so handsome and misterious, I felt like it was love, at first sight...

Anyway, I met three cute guys from Kazakhstan (where R is from) forgot  their names, but they were really nice. So I had tons of fun getting hit on by cute 20 year-olds and I did catch the Hot Ness monsters eye!! I was quite shocked. I also got hit on by weird pervs... It was quite hilarious~~

and blah, blah, blah *fastforward*, more random flirting...

My last day in Kemer carved it's wat slowly through my heart, staying engraved. I met a nice girl, and we became good friends, while waiting to get my tattoo (not a real one) a guy, Russian comes up to me. I was listening to my ipod, and he takes a headphone and starts to listen to my music. After about 10 min of that, he starts talking to me, couldnt understand, all I could make out fro it is the fact that he was starring at my cleavage and saying he likes. I'm thinking he liked my boobs... Just a wild guess...

and blah, blah, blah *fastforward*. more stuff happened but I am way too lazy...

So now back to the present, I am dying my hair!! today or tomorrow... half of my hair black, the other half blue with 3 highlights: pink, purple and green !! Uber excited !! (: Missing Nora, and i can't wait for school to start !! (:

♥ and some other stuff happened, but yeah ...

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