Here comes a feeling you thought you'd forgotten .

Holla , so I went to my DVD store , excited out of my mind , cause I was about to Amnesia . But noooooo , my stupid computer is so stupid that I cant play on it . So i was pissed , because I had downloaded it , and I was prepared to play it , but nope , it didnt work . I got my hopes up :( blaaah , but whatever , I'll play it some other day , its fine .... I guess it just wasnt meant to be :'( but I was looking forward to it . but its fine , I wasnt planning on going out today anyway :) I just feel like staying home , with my mum and my bro . <3 edited my twitter profile a bit :) quite proud of it . listening to some vampire weekend to calm all the angry thoughts I have left from before . I am just chiling , I need to read though , I need to find a book online and download it , buying books is too expensive now =.= its annoying .  I dont have 30 fucking KM to spend on a book . gosh . i have nothing to blog about , thats how boring my life has become . Because I am obviously not going to blog about next week , which is math week , I am just hoping that week never comes. I miss school , and the people , and the non-stop work !! :'( about to cryyy ! ahhh Fie is a handful sometimes , doesnt mean i stop loving her :) <3 i will always love her , I guess , despite what she has done in the past ... But who cares about that , I just watched an episode of How I Met Your Mother , it was interesting , thinking about going to get a movie in about an hour . :) hahaha , I need to shower in the morning and go out . :) Daddy left earlier today , he went to Tajikistan ! I told him to bring me somthing , so he better , I miss him already though ! My grandma might come tomorrow , I hope she does , I miss her very much and I want to spend as much time as I can with her .

If you like her , tell her . Maybe she likes you too .

Hello , once again . I am feelings very bloggy this fine evening :) I dont know why . My dad is asleep , he goes to Tajikistan tomorrow :/ so its going to be me , mum and my brother for about 3 weeks ... Ill have to do all the cleaning since my mum will be at work , and my brother at school . But thank god I will have the entire apartement for me and my boyfriend ..... hahahaha ! what boyfriend ? but who cares , its better this way , because I have Josh anyways , I barely talked to him these past few weeks . But hope he gets on skype soon , I have so much to tell him :D <3 hahaha , and I really miss him ! :) but its fine , I have to start doing math , next week . I cant be bothered , goddddd , its gonna be such a pain in the asssss !!! i hate math , but I need to pass , so I need to work hard over the break , so I can get a 3 or a 4 next semester . I am getting pretty tired , might go out with the same people tomorrow , I wanna invite someone , but dont know whooooo :/ hahaha , Fie is making me tired with her tiredness . damn her ! :D I dunno , I think we might watch a movie tomorrow and then go to Que Pasa ... I just cant be bothered , I am so tired , I just want to sleeeeep ! sooo bad , its like 12 oclock ! i shouldve been in bed at like 9 , but noooo , stupid me decided to go out =.= gosh , its like im getting tired on purpose , I need to stop . i need to drop , and i need to sleep :3 OH OH ! i totally forgot my big countdown til i see the love of my life :) hahaha , must count the days in the morning , will blog again as soon as I can , but for now ...

Goodnight.~

2011 ♥

So today is 2011 , and i haven't blogged in a while because someone I knew died and I was very sad . But I have realized that nothing could bring him back , and that the best thing to do is to move on . And i have realized that life was too short , and that you never know when you are going to die , so we have to eat dessert before dinner . :) i dont eat dessert dinner , because i am affraid to  but maybe one day i will be able to . Other stuff happen , like Anna was very brave and ate dessert before dinner , and i am VERY proud of her ;) I dyed my hair blue , and failed because it looks black , purple and red . with some blue :/ ohh weeell . So since we all know i was grounded for New Year , and i cried like , all night , because of some other stuff I wont mention , and i still look like shit :/ not the point , so i was grounded , and around 11:16 my parents told me i could spend one hour at fies house , so I spent New Year with Fie :) and i had fun ! and Daniel was a great DJ :D and P.G was just weird .. hhaaha !! Oh and there is this guy that hates me and is scared of me ! hahaha ! poor him , im not that scary am i ? :D right right ?? hahaha , ummm what else , Mirza was sooo drunk =.= he is such a baby ! <3 i love him ! what else , what else , 3more months until i see the love of my life :) i am very excited , and hahahaha ! about the whole plan for winter break , that person in question can shove that up his ass :D he can find himself a whore :) and yeah , i might not eat dessert before dinner for another 12 months :) I watched some more episodes of Amnesia :) quite fun , its getting intense , I cant wait 'til i see the monster :D hahaha , yeah i hope this year will be better ,and hope to pass math and be healthy for the rest of the year . AND i hope that i can go see my Rara in the summer <3 i hope everyone had fun for New Year :) and i am proud to say that I passed ALL OF MY CLASSES !!! [except math , but who cares about math ?] well thats it for today , need to have a big sleepover with my celinebear :) because i love her and i miss her . and i am happy that its finally new year :) so now i can start again , and make the same mistakes all over again , but , in a new year :D 

2010 ! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

allan hyde :)

let's remove the space between me and you . ♥

Hello , 
I went to Nora's yesterday , and it was tons of fun :) we wrote my essay on Sir Isaac Newton and I think its amazing :) haha , so right now I'm sitting at home , just finished drinking my hot chocolate , and I'm eating rice . Deffinetly excited about meeting the new asian guy today :D I still dont know what I am going to weaarrr , was supposed to go to Noras this morning , but decided not to , I was a  bit lazy . Talking to Shelby on facebook right now :D tons of fun , and talked to Josh for christmas :) he was soo cute , he cut his hair , he looks adorable . I just want to eat him :3 <3 anyways , what else have I been up to ? Not much actually , life is pretty boring right now ! And I asked Pinhoe to bring me something from London ! So he better :D haha .

pictures from yesterday :)

Nora's Blog 

Who's that girl? She must be nearly freezing.

           

just had lunch , it was damn good ! and i forgot to say that yesterday i ate rice for the first time in an entire semester :O <3 and i had to savor it , and it was wonderful and the soysauce was magical and it was as if i was flying , it was perfect . i loved it , and i shall eat more of it tomorrow :D so apperantly mum said that i was getting my Uggs from America , but I also get a surprise :O so one of the things i am excited about . But right now , i need a new computer , not a laptop , fuck laptops , they are shit , so when I get my computer i shall buy Amnesia :D I need to go on a diet , i just ate a big piece of cake , and i feel like my stomach is teling me i should regret doing that , dammit ! :D Ugggarrghhhh , i just remember i have to to my chemistry essay =.= oh god , ruining my weekend ! :@ so aangrrry , okay , not that angry , but you know ... Also , I need to inform my parents about dyeing my hair on wednesday :D what else what else , Dont you just hate it when people lie right in your face ??? hahahaha , i think its hilarious when they do it , and they think you dont know that theyre lying, fucking hilarious i tell  you . been thinking about makimg a new youtube  account , but well see . i have all the time in the world , 6 more days until winter break ! so excitted :) i have some interesting plans for winter break ;) but well see ,    which reminds me , i havent talked to Josh in a while <3 :) here is a picture of him , sending me a heart on skype :) i miss him and his purdy blue eyes :) hes sooo adorable when he sleeeps , hes so quite but then he starts talking :3 so adorable , i love it , hahaha . I am so proud of him , he got a job :) even though his lazy butt doesnt want to get up in the morning , he still has to :D <3 makes me so prouddd !! :3

for the fourth time , Merry Christmas . 

i hope that everyone is having fun , and not being a no-lifer and writting nonsense on this very fine day :)

hahahaha yeah , so go party hard people :D

ps. the song from the title is : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHUZKOh5kLc

enjoy :3

It's Not Christmas Without You .

yeah , yeah . its still Christmas , and I am still bored to death , I dont want to go to bed .... since .. Okay , there actually is no reason for me to stay awake , maybe I'll see Santa bringing me my present , but whatevsss , not gonna happen :) Wondering what I got for Christmas , I actually dont want a lot ... :) but yeah , I decided to dye my hair blue on wednesday , so pretty excited about that :) wonder what it will the final result look like O.o so excited about blue hair ! ummm what else , I have a chemistry essay that I did not even start :D hurray for another fucking week of school =.= but then i can relax , which reminds meee , I have a party to attend for New Year , but mum is not sure if she will let me go , because of the scandal at the Guetta concert , although I dont know what shes getting her panties in a bunch , it was just a concert , its not like we had alcohol , or we had drugs , or we smoked , or we had sex ... but anywaysss , thats not the point , i am still indesicive about some stuff , and what is with me getting so educated after watching Toby play video games , they guy is pretty cool , he is like over 20 , and he plays games at home :D i want to marry him sometimes , but then i remember Allan Hyde , and I cannot have two men in my life :D Ummm , yeah so I'm getting a bit tired , edited my blog a bit , and my twitter , go check it out of else . so yeah , i guess thats it , ill blog in the morning , well actually in a couple of hours , when i get my Christmas presents :) there shall be pictures . 

and watch this random video for no apperant reason :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jx2yQejrrUE&feature=topvideos or , just because I said so :) kinda missing David Guetta , damn him ! :D cause tonight I'm lovin' you ... nananaaa ~~ yeah , i should have told him I like him ... dammit , no i shouldnt have ... hes a buttface :D hahaha must stop thinking about it , i have geater things to be worries about , like NEW YEAR BITCHES ! 

p,s, song from the title is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U1XgSio_15k :) enjoyyy ! :D 

p.p.s how are you liking the christmas colors ? :D and if you didnt notice shame on you ! i went through so much trouble on changing the color ! hahahaha :D <3 well good night , i must go stalk some interesting people on facebook ;D;D and yes yes yesssssss , i miss my CelineBear :)

so once again , Merry Christmas :)

Christmas .

so first of all , Merry Christmas to everyone that still reads this bullshit :D and need I remind you that I still have one more week of school , so I am not having a lot of free time to blog and tweet all the time ; thats not true , i tweet non-stop , so check it out , i pimped out my twitter :D <3 yeah , so many things have been happening in my life , since the last time I blogged , so I went to the David Guetta concert WITHOUT the permission of my parents , and I was in deep shit because of that , well actually I still am in deep shit because of that , I just decided not to deal with the shit load of deep shit right now , I'll do it , sometime later ... So , I had an interesting time at the concert and I was really glad i went , despite everything . Ummm .. other stuff happened on the 18th that have "bouleverser ma vie" , but thats not the point , the point is , that right now , it is approximately 1 AM on December 25th and I am blogging and I have just watched 14 videos of Toby Turned playing Amnesia .  Yes , that is what I have become ... and yeah , now I seriously am considering buying the game ... But that , however is STILL not the point , but I am not quite sure what the point is ... Ummm , what else has happened in my non-existent life ? I went Christmas shopping and I didnt feel so up for it , I've just been so moody these days , and I just bought a coat , but I guess thats more than enough for now . I get my Uggs on Monday , so one of the only thing to be excited about :) and yeah tonight I was indeed supposed to tell "him" that I like him , but screw him , if he wants to be with me , he will make it happen , until then , he can go fuck himself . I re-decorated my room again ;3 so proud , moved my big closet across the room , and I felt pretty powerful :D hoho , I'm such a dude sometimes :/ i need to stop , right now . Ummm .. I failed math for the semester , one of the other things to not be so proud of :/ ummm , what else , what else , I deffinetly sure I got fatter :( oh well , its not like theres anyone to look pretty for :D Oh , which reminds me , I am about to ramble on about bitches wanting for attention so just skip this part ... so yeah , basically , I am absolutely annoyed by how gullible some people can be , and not notice that it is all a part of an attention-whore moment . I am sorry , I am just saying , but posting things such as , being all depressed all of a sudden , or being happy about talking to a person , is just a desperate cry for attention , and my blind grandmother can see that from a fucking airplane , so just fuck off , get a life , and go NOT seek for attention . but whatever , I stopped caring , and I am seriously just saying this because I am bored and annoyed , and a tad bit pissed , but thats a different story ... I dont know , and also self-obsessed little girls always saying how in love they are , I am sorry but I can be in love , and its NO ONE'S fucking business , I mean , I can walk around saying how in love I am , but WOULD ANYONE CARE??? I DONT FUCKING THINK SO ! right so , I might be overreacting , its my mood swings , didnt mean to be rude to anyone who does that .... but honestly .... just like calm the fuck down and stop thinking people care , I mean I dont give a shit what they say about me , I can be a fucking whore in their eyes , wont stop me from being the BEST WHORE in my eyes :) Changing the subject , I feel like I've been a bit too rude to some people , and I feel like I forgot how to care about things , because I've been all "I dont care these days" and right now , I aint liking one bit of this Not Caring Attitude , but oh well . what can you do . what else , Allan Hyde turned 21 , on December 21st 2010 :) which reminds me in about 112 days I am going to see him , because of this Vampire convention in Paris , and my mutti said it was cool for me and her to go for a road trip . Its in April , so ill dith a couple of days of school to see my one and only Allan Hyde :) 

merry christmas :)

more than words .

It's been a while , about a month maybe ? But I've been busy , with various activities , and quite frankly , I've missed blogging . It feels like a passion , like something I would want to keep doing , even after a long time has passed . It involves writing and opinions and not that much time , and it can be done at any time of the week ... So it is possibly the best job for the "future me" ! a lot has been going on in my life , these past few weeks . I have gotten a couple of negative grades , from physics and math :/  chemistry teacher finally started to like me :D quite proud of myself , she thinks I study at home , but I actually did all of this before , twice , so its the third time now :D hahaha , thats alright . 



Ummm , what else , I got my David Guetta ticket and mum decided not to let me go to the concert , but I mean , who am I to listen to her ramble on about how things used to be different when she was young , and how it can damage my ears , and I could get raped and used as a prostitue =.= i swear she comes up with the greatest cliches , but whatever , I have a plan , I am going to see David no matter what they say :) and I feel brave and proud ! 






Next wednesday is my one month anniversary with Martin :) I have fun with him , he's a nice guy , and to be honest I like sneaking around the apartment :D hahaha , its quite dangerous ! Although he IS a great guy , he does have some faults ... like for example he is sortof like Curly from "Of Mice and Men" he always talks about beating up people , and I am sortof like Curleys Wife , I am lonely and I get tired of that shit , I mean not that I am NOT proud of him , I really am , I just wish he could talk about something else ... But hes great ! I really like him , he makes me feel special and he has the lamest jokes :D hahaha but theyre so cute though !! haha , hes so cute when he thinks Im mad and he repeats : "Im kidding!!" over and over again :) <3 <3 

I dont remember when this was , but we had a SINC reunion [for those who dont know it stands for Sarah , Ivana , Nora and Celine , and if you didnt know this you should be ashames , cuz we are awesome , and everyone should know about us !!!] anyways , so we had a reunion and it was quite fun ! Since CelineBear!! has a boyfriend now , and hes quite awesome ;) haha I am proud of her , hes waaaaay better than her gay EX boyfriend Chris , no offence , but i mean , he looks like Justin Bieber [ew] I mean it was cute for a while , but it got boring . Anyhow , I got to bring Martin and we had fun , we reminisced about how the good old days used to be easier and the day before I had a sleepover with CelineBEARR!! I mean i love her and everything  but she stayed up til 3 AM ON SKYPE WITH PHILIP !!! I couldnt fall asleep , I was DEAD the next morning , I mean it is cute , but seriouslyyyyy , SOO TIREDDD !!! anyways , she talked to me about some of her issues , and I was really sad that she would feel that way , I love her , and I've never seen her VERY sad about anything , so I was a GREAT BEST FRIEND and I let her straighten my hair , which BTW Martin said nothing about ... :/ buttface !! <3 

Nora , me and Ceebearr !!!

me and Anne Sofie :) <3

Me , Ivana , Nora and Ceebear !

Nora , Philip , me and Ivana <3

Well for Christmas I WANT ....

A PINK LAPTOP!!!

and ....

ALLAN HYDE !!!

ahahahaha , of course ! its almost November 26th , the day of the Vampire Ball in London , that I didnt go to .. so I am all UGH because I couldnt go :( but its alright , it wiill get better , of course , I just have to be positive , and think about AWESOME things like for example , 
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER !!!!! yes thats right !!! HOW I MET YOUR MOTHERR !!!!! and its SOOOO AWESOMEE !!!!

something else that is quite awesome , is the fact that my C.T project is to draw a stamp !! and guess whats ON the stamp ....

yeah thats right , its the ITALIAN mushroom from MARIO ! and its awesome , and I love it , and Im about to get an awesome and big 7 !!! booyah . 

well Im gonna go and be depressed , maybe read a book , or watch another movie , cause I just finished "Going The Distance" and its suuuch a cuuute movie :) I absolutely ADORED it , and Justin Long , is such a fine looking actor ;D;D I also watched "The Private Life of Pippa Lee" it was heartbreaking , but the way Blake Lively protrais a young troubled teenager is quite fascinating . 

picture of the day :

p.s. I get to find out if Im going to the US or not next week :/ oh well , I'll live :D

whoa , oh .

Photo of the day : 

Song of the day :

 ♥selena gomez - a year without rain

good things come to those who wait .

last week was a mess ! i felt like it was the longest week of my life ! i took a test on Monday , its about a scholarship for a year in america :) i was sooo excited , and that night they called me and said to come in the next day for the second round !! :D i was soo happy , but sadly i have to wait about 4 weeks to get a call ... :( uuugggh , we all know how impatient i am ! that was fun , i ditched two days of school :) was in a grreat mood ... but right now , i have a strange feeling that all of this happen 2 weeks ago ... 

~~maaan , it was a looong week ....

anyway , stuff happened , it was interesting , i got a 7 from french :) i was proud ....

**so i havent really talked about the people in my class .... thats cause i didnt have much time , but now that i know them better , theyre pretty awesome :)  im glad im where i am :) ill miss them , IF i go to america ... i mean ill see them in 3rd year , but its going to be very different ... :( so okay , 

Left Row [starting from the back] :

Me and Fie :) 

Fatin and Lorenzo (lorenzo is annoying , we knew that from before ...)

Mirza and Alejandro [alex] (i love theem ! theyre awesomee)

Ajsa and Irma (i love ajsa , but irma , tsk tsk tsk , i love her too :D)

Naomi Jo (FAKE HATE , although i think she really hates me...)

Middle Row : [back to front]

Danny and Bravo [lol , no comment ...]

Masha and B(S)elma [love ♥] 

Farah and Iman [theyre smart ...]

S.K and Ajla [JOHN CENA !! ♥♥]

Right Row [back to front]

Denis [used to go to french school with him ...]

Visnja and Adela [wiiishnya and my lesbian friend :D:D]

Tarik and Kerim [Fie is dating Tarik* and Kerim is awesome .]

The Story of Fie and Tarik ...

naaah , just kidding , not a story about them :) its a story about how he took advantage of her ... naaah , not a story about that either :) its a story about how we got drunk and the whole school found out =.=

not blaming anyone =.= im just saying ... but yeah , it was fun ... dont really remember what day this was , but it was on a weekend .. :) 

hmmm .. what else happened ?? oh yeah , this friday i went out with DanoBEAR ♥ , Nora , Kem , Haris and i met MARTIN !! :D it was soo much fun ! Martin is awesome :) just like i thought he would be :) other stuff happened , but not worth remembering ...

**also i swallowed a piece of my braces =.= i fail ... i seriously do  

oh and Noras ex-boyfriend NEAL ! that slut , hes dating Catlyn Moore ??!!! i was in SUCH SHOCK ! there is no other word than "EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWW" to describe how gross that is ... not to be mean or anything ... =.= its realllyyyy grosss ....

~Halloween !

so i made plans for halloween , i decided that Philip [ceeBEARS] boyfriend wears a pumpkin suit :) and were gonna go party at Tabu or something .. theres going to big party for halloween , i just need to get a costume :3 quite excited , it will get my mind off things ... god knows i need a big party ... ;D;D

xoxo , Sarahh ;D

picture of the day :

love. ♥

Pursuit Of Happiness...

http://ac-see.org/programs/yes-eng.htm

america . ♥ [here i come.]

if i was a rich girl...

A three day convention celebrating vampires in the media, and shows such as TRUE BLOOD, BUFFY, ANGEL, MOONLIGHT, BEING HUMAN and FOREVER KNIGHT, featuring:

• guest talks

• photo and autograph sessions

• competitions

• make up displays 

• parties 

• and much more

26-28 November 2010 at the Thistle Hotel, Heathrow.

TICKET PRICES

• £135:00 Gold Tickets

• £88:50 Regular Tickets

• £35:00 for Children aged 14 and under

• Free Children aged 7 and under 

• Ticket prices do not include meals or accomodations. Any children aged 14 or under MUST be accompanied by a responsible adult.   

Each night at the convention we will be having a party for the attendees to enjoy. Fancy dress is optional, and not compulsory.

PARTY THEMES 

Friday Night: 

Sunnydale High

Saturday Night: 

The Vampire Ball

Sunday Night: 

Rocky Horror Show 

Why do I want to go to some expensive Vampire Ball ?

there must be only one reason...

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yes that's right !

Allan Hyde will indeed be attending the Vampire Ball.

so when I saw this, at first I thought it would be in the US, or something, but its in the UK, and i was in shock, Allan Hyde, in Europe. I have an opportunity to meet him, and I sure as hell will take it! 

Sarahh's Money Saving Project (The SMSP)

I will be keeping a track of how much money I am saving on my Twitter at the end of every day. I made some rules in order to save plenty of money !

• don't buy unnecessary things
• don't eat expensive things
• don't go to any events that cost money

so thats my SMS project . i hope it will work so far I found 48 KM(31.1

8 $) in the house, in my old wallets, and mum gave me 10KM that day, soo ...

so yeah, life is intense and I wish I had enough money to go to the Vampire Ball. We all know how obsessed I am with Allan Hyde. But there is nothing i can really do than wait for mum to say that "yes" we are going or "no" were not . I'm a bit scared , getting my hopes up, but I really want to go to the ball, when will i EVER get an opportunity like this ? 

so anyway, here is a list of stuff i want !! 

22.33$

17.54$

15.75$

17.22$

20.04$

by the way, these are only items for ONE night, the actual Vampire Ball, will post more outfits later . (:

www.fashion4us.com

p.s i love life.

xo xo